Long But Good Week

It has been a long week, filled with work, rest, family time and a couple of great massages. I worked over 50 hours between Monday and Friday, and I am back at work today. While I am grateful that I am able to work so much, even though I am going through chemo treatments, I am still tired. Actually, I am not sure the word tired describes it adequately. Exhausted seems like a better fit.

But, that didn’t stop me from spending time with Tina and the kids, and I am so appreciative for that. Even after I came home from a 11 or 12 hour day, Tina and I had dinner together and the kids and I got to hang out. It wasn’t a lot of time, but it was quality time, and for that I am grateful.

I also got to squeeze in a few massages! After the one I had last Saturday, which helped resolve a lot of pain that I was having in my mid-back, I ended up hurting myself again Sunday night. I awoke in the middle of night with a sharp pain in my back that went down to my middle back and up into my head. Fortunately, because of my mom gifting me the massages at Massage Green Spa, I was able to get another one on Monday night. That one helped tremendously. I also got a free one at the Victory Center on Thursday afternoon, which was wonderful!

Tonight I plan to play a little Call of Duty with my sons, maybe a watch a couple TV shows with Bree, and get a good night’s sleep. I really want to get to bed early enough so that I am not dead tired tomorrow, and can make it back to church in the morning. After all that He has done for me, I would like to get back to honoring Him and living my life as He wants me to.

All Work and No Play…

So I have been really busy at work, working 11 straight days as of last Saturday. Most of those days were 10+ hours and most days I came home to eat and sleep as much as I could. I had Sunday off and, other than catching Kong: Skull Island with my son Mark and his girlfriend Michelle, it was a day of being lazy with a lot of sleep and general rest. Then I was back to work on Monday.

Tuesday was chemo and afterward I tried to sleep for awhile, but that didn’t happen right away. I caught up on some TV shows on the DVR and then about 6:00pm I fell asleep. My sweet wife, Tina, woke me up at almost 8:00pm with a great dinner, and I was then awake until well after 3:00am today. Because of my lack of sleep, the effects of the chemo, and a lot of work over the past two weeks, I took today as a sick day and decided to get some more sleep and general rest.

The good news is that I only have two days left to work this week and I also have a massage scheduled at Massage Green Spa for Saturday at 8:00pm. So I’m almost there, and with some good rest today, I think I can make it.

Working Another Saturday

Well here I am at work on another Saturday, the fifth week in a row. Last night I was really bummed out about working today after working a full week, comprising of well over 40 hours, because I wanted to relax and catch up on some rest. Yup, I was really bummed, until I thought about it this morning, after a good night’s sleep and with a clear head.

Why should I be saddened about working on another Saturday? I mean, my boss was kind and understanding enough to let me work every other Saturday, to have every other Tuesday for chemo treatments. Not to mention that I am feeling well enough, even with the poison that is pumped into my body every other week, to actually work and maintain my work for my company and my financial responsibilities for my family.

So, instead of feeling bummed out about working another Saturday, I am grateful that I am able to. I am grateful that I am feeling well enough to work, and that I am seeing good results from my chemo treatments. I am grateful that I have an incredible amount of support from my family, friends and co-workers. I am grateful to God for helping me through this and giving me the strength to do what I have to do.

It’s Been A While

So it’s been a while since I posted anything, and I’m not really sure why. It’s not like I didn’t have anything to say, I guess I’ve just been busy with other stuff. I’ve been trying to get a lot done at work, including wrapping up a couple of large projects, hiring and training a new web developer, and taking care of the usual break-fix stuff in the world of IT. As a matter of fact, I am at work now on a glorious and wonderful Saturday morning, when I would prefer to be at home sleeping.

In the evenings after work Tina and I have been spending a lot of time together, going out to dinner, binge watching a couple of Netflix shows and getting some shopping done. It’s a lot more than I usually do after work, but I love to spend time with her and it’s been helping me keep my mind off the whole cancer thing, even if just a little.

Speaking of cancer, I finished round six of my chemo this week, and the symptoms are steady and mostly unchanged. The cold sensitivity is probably the worst, because touching or eating/drinking anything even remotely cold causes a problem for me. The best way that I can explain it is when eating/drinking cold things, it is what I imagine it would be like to drink liquid Icy Hot. First the cold is almost unbearable and then it burns. When touching anything cold, my hands tingle like they are going to sleep, then they burn.

Anyway, enough of my whining. I’ll try to do better with the updates, because it really helps me to get my thoughts out and clear my mind.

A Great Weekend and Ready for Work

I had a great weekend, filled with plenty of rest, family time, and even some work. Friday evening we all celebrated Tina’s birthday and had a great time as a family. I fell asleep not long after 9:00pm and slept until almost 10:00am the next morning. I think all that sleep was due to the emotional dump that I had after the doctor appointment that morning and having just a little less on my mind.

Saturday I stayed home and watched some TV and did a little work from home. Believe it or not, I also took about a two hour nap! Then, after taking Tina to work, I came home and watched the Bellator fights with my oldest son Mark and his girlfriend Michelle. Unfortunately, sleep didn’t happen so easily Saturday night and I was up until after 4:00am, though I’m not real sure why.

After picking Tina up from work at 7:00am on Sunday, I watched a little TV and took a nap. Then I got ready for the day and, after dropping her back off at work, Bree (my youngest daughter) and I went to my office and moved some employee’s computers and phones to new locations. I’m so glad that she went with me to help because she saved me a lot of crawling around under desks with my old, bad back.

Then we came home and I got a few things done around the house and now I’m laying in bed getting ready to go to sleep. I hired a new web developer at work on Friday and tomorrow is his first day, so we have a lot to go over. I’m excited that I’ll have someone to do the bulk of the programming for us so that I can go back to working primarily on the hardware stuff, which I truly enjoy.

Round Five Is Underway and Scanxiety is Getting Worse

This morning I went to the infusion center at the clinic for round five. Each round is bringing more fatigue and once again I slept through half of the morning at the center, leaving my poor wife, Tina, to read her book while I slept. I am so grateful that I have such a strong, loving and understanding women like her in my life.

After we finished up at the center, about 1:00 pm, we went home and I picked up my convertible to go to work. On the way I stopped and got my free haircut at Great Clips. That is such an awesome thing they do for cancer patients and it really helps to cheer me up every time I go in. And yes, I remembered to leave my tip with the stylist today.

I decided that I was still really tired and was going to take the day off, to get some rest, and as I checked my work email on my work cell phone I saw an email from my boss needing help on something immediately. I scrapped the idea of heading home and instead went to work. I helped my boss with what he needed, scheduled the remaining interviews for the new web developer that we are looking to hire, and worked on a couple of other items.

I left work about 5:00 pm and headed home to get some sleep. My youngest daughter met me at the door and offered to make me dinner, so after settling on some Mrs. Grass soup, I went upstairs while she cooked my food. After eating in bed, and watching a little TV, I finally fell asleep around 6:00 pm. I woke up again about 9:30 pm and it was evident that I was pretty wide awake, so I headed downstairs and did some work from home.

I am getting ready to go back to bed, so that I can work tomorrow, but I find myself thinking about my appointment with Dr. Phinney on Friday. In essence, I have 50/50 odds that the chemo is either working, or that it is not and we need to look to the next type of chemo treatment. Not really good odds if you ask me, and the wait is driving me crazy.

I am trying to remain positive, trying to give my worry to God, trying to be the good soldier. But I have to admit, the closer it gets to Friday morning, the more scared I get. Is the chemo working? Is it not working? Is the cancer growing and spreading from the chemo (yes, that is actually a possibility)? Are we going to get good news or more bad news? How will what we hear affect my beautiful wife’s birthday, which is also Friday?

Friday can’t come soon enough. And yet, at the same time, I kind of wish that it would never come at all.

Monday is Here Again

After a very good and productive Saturday, and a quiet and relaxing Sunday, the work week is here. I got a great night’s sleep, thanks to being tired and with a little help from my good friend Lunesta. I picked Tina up from work at 7:15am and was in the office before 8:00am.

I have a long day of work ahead of me, including setting up interviews for later this week, for a web developer job. I also need to call SonicWall about an issue that we are having with our firewall. Then I’ve got some programming that I have to do myself, to continue on a project that I’ve been working on.

And then, after work, I get to go to Kistler Ford and pick up our new 2016 Ford Edge Titanium Edition! I am really excited about getting this new car and I can’t wait to go to the dealership tonight. Today is going to be like what Christmas Eve used to be for me when I was a kid!

PET Scan, Work and Play

I went this morning for my second PET scan, so that we can see if the chemo is working or not. The procedure itself isn’t too bad, though I am a big guy to fit in the little tube. The diet they require the 24 hours before the test kind of stinks, but I lived through it. Though I have to admit that was the easy part, because it’s going to be a long 11 days to get the results, that’s for sure!

I made it to work earlier than I expected and have been cranking out the work since. It’s kind of nice to have a short day, especially considering that I worked 6 hours on Saturday and 5 more on Sunday. Well that and I am VERY tired today. Not sure if it is the chemo, the lack of rest and relaxation this weekend, or a combination of both. I have to admit that I’m hoping for a good night’s sleep tonight.

After work today Tina and I are meeting our oldest son Mark and his girlfriend, Michelle, at the mall to watch Underworld: Blood Wars. It has been a really well done series so far and I am looking forward to seeing where they take it in this sequel. While most critics have bashed the movie, I don’t typically take a lot of stock in what the critics have to say, because most of the films that I enjoy are not for mainstream audiences. That and I have enjoyed the series so far and the trailers for this one looked good, so I am optimistic.

Bad Sleep but Good News

I fell asleep last night about 10pm and woke up this morning just after 4:30am. I’ve been coughing the last few days and pulled a muscle in my back, which has been keeping me from getting a good night’s sleep since. Today was no different when I apparently rolled over in my sleep, because I quickly awoke with a sharp pain in my back.

Unfortunately, I am going to work this morning, after I pick Tina up from work at 7am, to make some changes on our core router. That means that going back to sleep is probably not going to happen anytime soon. The good news is that my mom and dad offered to treat me to a massage, to get that muscle worked on, and I have an appointment today at 2pm at Massage Green Spa. I’m hoping and praying for some serious relief from the pain when my appointment is done.

I also called the Victory Center this week and found out more about their services, which are free for cancer patients and their immediate families. They offer massages, reflexology, reiki, exercise programs, counseling, and more, all at no charge. What an awesome thing for people in the Toledo area and I have an intake meeting scheduled for next Wednesday at 1pm. They already scheduled me for a massage next Saturday, too.

Once again, it’s nice to see organizations providing free or discounted services to cancer patients. God is definitely shining His loving light down, I just need to remember to open my eyes and look for it.

Time For The Weekend, Sort Of

The year is almost done, and so is my work week. Well, almost, on both counts. I have been working on a project at work for the past 18 months and we are going live with it on January 1st. So, to wrap up the last few things, I will be working tomorrow and Sunday, for as long as it takes to get it done. But hey, it’s not a total loss, because I have Monday off.

The side effects from the chemo have been much more tolerable this round, and I am prayerfully hopeful that it will be the same next week, because I go for round four on Tuesday. After this round is the new PET scan and we find out if the chemo is working or if we need to look to the next kind of chemo cocktail.

So, since I am working tomorrow, I am already in bed and ready to go to sleep. I need to get a good night’s sleep so that I can be fresh and ready to crank the work out tomorrow. After all, if I knock it out tomorrow, I get Sunday off, too.