Yet Another Weekend

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Sometimes I’m really glad to have the weekend finally come, after a long week of work, and other times I’m just wishing it would be over. This was my six day work week, because I have Tuesday off for chemo, and it was a hectic week at work. One of those weeks in IT where chaos is the normal and you never stop jumping from one task to another.

Typically I would be excited for a day off, but I miss Tina tonight, and am having a real problem sleeping. Even after working about fifty hours this week, I’m still awake, more than 19 hours after I woke up Saturday morning. My brain is whirling about my disease, among other things, and I can’t talk with Tina because she’s working.

Hopefully later today I can wake up and hang with my kids for a little while, for Father’s Day, before they go about their typical daily rituals. Having older kids is great, but I never know what will happen, and this year I really want to see them all. I mean, let’s be honest and say it: who knows how many more Father’s Days I’ll be around for? This cancer thing is unpredictable and I have no idea what it has in store for me.

I know this all sounds negative, and I am not sure what’s going on with me tonight, but it is what it is. I guess I’ll try again to go to sleep, and hope that tomorrow brings me a good day, with more positive thoughts.

Categories: Cancer, Family Fun, Work

What a Weekend

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This weekend started off with me sleeping half of Friday evening and then being up past 2am Saturday morning. I didn’t mind it too much because I was tired and knew that I had to work Saturday evening on a phone system upgrade.

Saturday I woke up at 6:30am, picked up Tina from work, and then went back to sleep until after noon. Then I watched a little TV with Bree, dropped her off for a babysitting gig, then went home and took Tina and Ava to dinner at Longhorn Steakhouse. It’s always a good time having Ava join us for some quality fun time, just the three of us.

Unfortunately, Bree was not feeling well when I picked her back up, after dropping Tina off to work. I slept a couple of hours early Saturday evening, went to work for about three and a half hours, and was again up way too late. While I was at work, Bree woke up and told me that she had a fever of 103.2 and didn’t feel good. That lead us to the local urgent care on Sunday, where we found out she has strep throat. The rest of Sunday was spent taking naps, running to the store, and staying away from Bree.

Then I was up until after 3am on Monday morning. My sleep schedule is totally messed up and I have to get it right by tomorrow for work. I’m still coughing up major junk, even after finishing the Z-pack, and feeling pretty poopy. Ill be calling the doctor again on Tuesday for another prescription and hope that I feel better soon.

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Ready for a Vacation

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I have been enjoying the two week break I got from chemo, but I have been working a lot and busy at home, too. With all that has been going on, I am in desperate need of a break. Some time alone with my beautiful wife Tina; some time to just decompress. Time where work isn’t part of my every day and it’s just me and my sweetheart. Fortunately, I don’t have too long to wait.

Thursday after I get off work I am running home to pick Tina up and we’re heading down to Columbus, Ohio and checking into a hotel. Then, after a good night’s sleep without distractions and a nice late start, we are heading to Mapfre Stadium for day one of Rock on the Range. It’s going to be a great night of good old grunge music with Bush, Live and Soundgarden. We saw all three of them a few years ago together and they all put on a great show.

On Saturday we are going to sleep in until we feel like getting up, because day two of Rock on the Range for us starts about 5:00 when we will watch Seether, Papa Roach, The Offspring and Korn. We’ve both seen Seether and Papa Roach in the past couple of years and enjoy their shows. We saw The Offspring together back in 1996 at Cobo Hall in Detroit, Michigan, and they had a great show, too. I’ve never seen Korn perform live and Tina saw them a few years ago at Rock on the Range, but the soundboard mixing was really bad and she only stayed for a few songs before leaving. We are both really excited and hope they sound good this time.

Sunday is another lazy, sleep in kind of day for us, because the first band that we want to see on day three of Rock on the Range hits the stage at 4:25. The Pretty Reckless is first, followed by Primus and Volbeat. Then, for me, the best act of the weekend happens when my favorite band (since the late 80’s) hits the stage at 8:45: Metallica. I’ve seen them three other times through the years, first in 1988, then with Tina in 2009, then again with my oldest son Mark in 2012. Each show was better than the last and I am so excited about seeing them again.

The best part of seeing Metallica this time is that they have consistently played my favorite song on this tour at every concert, Fade to Black, and I’m so hopeful they play it on Sunday. To be honest, the other reason that I’m excited to see them this year is because, with my current health, who knows if I’ll be around if they come back again in a few years. I’m definitely trying to stay positive, but it’s also important to be a realist.

So, for this weekend, it’s Rock On!

Categories: Family Fun, Vacation

Long But Good Week

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It has been a long week, filled with work, rest, family time and a couple of great massages. I worked over 50 hours between Monday and Friday, and I am back at work today. While I am grateful that I am able to work so much, even though I am going through chemo treatments, I am still tired. Actually, I am not sure the word tired describes it adequately. Exhausted seems like a better fit.

But, that didn’t stop me from spending time with Tina and the kids, and I am so appreciative for that. Even after I came home from a 11 or 12 hour day, Tina and I had dinner together and the kids and I got to hang out. It wasn’t a lot of time, but it was quality time, and for that I am grateful.

I also got to squeeze in a few massages! After the one I had last Saturday, which helped resolve a lot of pain that I was having in my mid-back, I ended up hurting myself again Sunday night. I awoke in the middle of night with a sharp pain in my back that went down to my middle back and up into my head. Fortunately, because of my mom gifting me the massages at Massage Green Spa, I was able to get another one on Monday night. That one helped tremendously. I also got a free one at the Victory Center on Thursday afternoon, which was wonderful!

Tonight I plan to play a little Call of Duty with my sons, maybe a watch a couple TV shows with Bree, and get a good night’s sleep. I really want to get to bed early enough so that I am not dead tired tomorrow, and can make it back to church in the morning. After all that He has done for me, I would like to get back to honoring Him and living my life as He wants me to.

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A Great Weekend Comes to an End

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After a very long couple of weeks, this weekend was very much anticipated, for a few¬†reasons. First, I didn’t have to work on Saturday, so I had a full two days off in a row. Second, chemo hit me pretty hard with fatigue this round, and I was in need of some rest and relaxation. Third, I had a massage scheduled for Saturday night, and I was hoping to get some relief from a couple of pulled muscles in my mid-to-upper back.

Friday night after work I took Tina to work and then came home and watched a little TV. Then I jumped on the old, trusty PS4 and played some Call of Duty: Modern Warfare Remastered (COD) with both of my sons. I do enjoy shooting some people (online, relax) and kicking it with the boys. I went to bed far too late and after picking Tina up on Saturday morning, I went back to sleep for another 4 1/2 hours, or so.

When I finally got up at 12:30pm on Saturday, I did a whole bunch of nothing. I made myself some lunch, played some more COD, and caught up on a couple of TV shows off the DVR. After taking Tina to work, I came home and showered and then went to my massage appointment, and it was awesome! I finally got some relief for my (literal) aching back and felt much better afterward. I highly recommend Massage Green Spa and am so appreciative to my mom for gifting me several massages!

Unfortunately, I felt so good, and had slept so late that day, that I was up until after 2:00am playing more COD with my boys and watching TV with my daughter Bree. After picking Tina up Sunday morning, I came back home and slept until 11:30am. Then Bree and I went shopping together. We hit Costco and Kroger and got some good, healthy rations for the week for all of us. After coming home I made some homemade, low carb pizza for Tina and I to share for dinner, and then I dropped her off to work.

When I got back home I chilled with the kids for a while and then Bree and I watched Modern Family from earlier this week together. Then I went right into The Walking Dead and now I am getting ready to watch the season two premiere of Into the Badlands, before going to sleep.

I wish I had been a little more responsible with my time on Saturday night so that I could make it to church this morning, but otherwise it was a great weekend.

Categories: Cancer, Family Fun

It’s Been A While

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So it’s been a while since I posted anything, and I’m not really sure why. It’s not like I didn’t have anything to say, I guess I’ve just been busy with other stuff. I’ve been trying to get a lot done at work, including wrapping up a couple of large projects, hiring and training a new web developer, and taking care of the usual break-fix stuff in the world of IT. As a matter of fact, I am at work now on a glorious and wonderful Saturday morning, when I would prefer to be at home sleeping.

In the evenings after work Tina and I have been spending a lot of time together, going out to dinner, binge watching a couple of Netflix shows and getting some shopping done. It’s a lot more than I usually do after work, but I love to spend time with her and it’s been helping me keep my mind off the whole cancer thing, even if just a little.

Speaking of cancer, I finished round six of my chemo this week, and the symptoms are steady and mostly unchanged. The cold sensitivity is probably the worst, because touching or eating/drinking anything even remotely cold causes a problem for me. The best way that I can explain it is when eating/drinking cold things, it is what I imagine it would be like to drink liquid Icy Hot. First the cold is almost unbearable and then it burns. When touching anything cold, my hands tingle like they are going to sleep, then they burn.

Anyway, enough of my whining. I’ll try to do better with the updates, because it really helps me to get my thoughts out and clear my mind.

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A Great Weekend and Ready for Work

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I had a great weekend, filled with plenty of rest, family time, and even some work. Friday evening we all celebrated Tina’s birthday and had a great time as a family. I fell asleep not long after 9:00pm and slept until almost 10:00am the next morning. I think all that sleep was due to the emotional dump that I had after the doctor appointment that morning and having just a little less on my mind.

Saturday I stayed home and watched some TV and did a little work from home. Believe it or not, I also took about a two hour nap! Then, after taking Tina to work, I came home and watched the Bellator fights with my oldest son Mark and his girlfriend Michelle. Unfortunately, sleep didn’t happen so easily Saturday night and I was up until after 4:00am, though I’m not real sure why.

After picking Tina up from work at 7:00am on Sunday, I watched a little TV and took a nap. Then I got ready for the day and, after dropping her back off at work, Bree (my youngest daughter) and I went to my office and moved some employee’s computers and phones to new locations. I’m so glad that she went with me to help because she saved me a lot of crawling around under desks with my old, bad back.

Then we came home and I got a few things done around the house and now I’m laying in bed getting ready to go to sleep. I hired a new web developer at work on Friday and tomorrow is his first day, so we have a lot to go over. I’m excited that I’ll have someone to do the bulk of the programming for us so that I can go back to working primarily on the hardware stuff, which I truly enjoy.

Categories: Cancer, Family Fun, Work

A Great Start to the Weekend

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Today was an excellent day! It started with me picking my beautiful wife up from work at 7:00am and enjoying some breakfast with her before she went to sleep. Then I went to The Victory Center at 10:00am and got an incredible massage. I had awakened with a kink in my neck and the therapist worked it out completely.

After my massage I headed to Miss Cue South and met my oldest son Mark, and his girlfreind Michelle, Derek and his wife Marisol, and we played some 9 Ball until just after 1:00pm. I love to shoot pool because it is truly a release for me, and losing only three games in over two hours of play certainly makes it more fun (well, at least for me).

Then I went to Kistler Ford and talked with them about our 2013 Ford Fusion and getting into a new leased vehicle. I ended up finding a beautiful 2016 Ford Edge Titanium Edition available and am heading back Monday after work to pick it up. It has heated and AC front seats, heated rear seats, memory seating for the driver seat, remote start, perimeter alarm, Panoramic Vista roof (HUGE sunroof!), a Sony 12 speaker sound system (that totally rocks!), and comes with the Sync3 8″ touchscreen system that includes navigation and live traffic updates. The best part? We don’t have to pay the last three monthly lease payments for the Fusion and we are going to save $100 per month on the lease payments with the new Edge!

After the dealership I went to Costco and picked up a couple of essentials and also the PureGuardian Ultrasonic Warm and Cool Mist Humidifier for our bedroom. Tina and I have both been waking up with our noses very dry, and since we already have the humidifier on our furnace turned up to the highest setting, we are hoping this helps.

After getting home and taking a short nap, I took Tina to El Salto and we had a nice, quiet dinner together before she went to work. Then I went home, got a few things done around the house, and am now getting ready to go to bed. It’s been a long but productive and good day, filled with fun, some good deals, and some awesome alone time with Tina.

Categories: Cancer, Family Fun

What a Wonderful Christmas!

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Today was a beautiful day, one filled with family and fun. I’m sure I have a different outlook on the holidays, due to my cancer and the possibility that I may or may not have too many more chances at Christmas, but it truly was a beautiful day.

To start the day off, I picked Tina up from work and came home and then I wrapped some more presents while she got some sleep. After a brief nap, I got started on making a turkey dinner, with homemade stuffing, mashed potatoes and green bean casserole. While preparing the food, Mark and Michelle came over and were kind enough to help me prepare the food.

At 1:00 pm I ran over and picked up my granddaughter Shayla (David’s daughter) from her mom’s so that she could come over and open her presents from Santa and her dad. While Shayla was opening presents I woke Tina up and she came down in time to see Shayla open presents and then Susan and Zach brought my other granddaughter Ava over so that she could open her presents from all of us. The girls had a blast and it was so much fun watching them open their presents with all of their excitement and happiness.

About 3:00 pm my mom and dad came over to join the festivities. It was such a treat because my mom hasn’t been over for any of the holidays for the past several years, mostly because she has health issues of her own, and also because she and Tina had a number of small disagreements over the years. When I called my mom on Christmas eve day and asked her to come over, like I do every year, I explained that with both her and my health issues, it would be a good year to start anew. Fortunately, she agreed and joined us for a great day at the Carlson household.

By about 5:30 pm, most of our guests had left and cleanup began. The food had to be put away, the dishes cleaned up and all the discarded wrapping paper picked up. Once finished, Tina and I went upstairs and retired to our room to watch a movie and relax.

Again, what a wonderful Christmas!

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