Not Feeling Well

The new chemo, Lonsurf, is really kicking my butt the past few weeks. The fatigue is much more than I expected and no matter how much sleep I get, I am still extremely tired and having a very difficult time concentrating on even the simplest of tasks. I just finished the first round, which means that I get a two week break from the chemo, but I don’t know how long it will be before the fatigue starts to get better, if at all, and that just sucks.

I have been off work the past two days and have slept a crazy amount of time, at least for me. As an example, Sunday night I slept for about 7.5 hours, then slept again for another 5.5 hours Monday morning into the afternoon. Then I went to bed on Monday night around 8:00 and slept for 10.5 hours straight, yet still awoke very tired. In the past (even on chemo), if I got about 5-6 hours of sleep per night I was functional; 7-8 hours of sleep and I was a rock star.

But the past few weeks, it has become increasingly difficult for me to do anything that requires concentration, including reading or composing emails, watching TV, playing games on my PS4, and sometimes even just talking to people. My mind is all over the place and yet nowhere, all at the same time. Easy words escape me while I am talking and typing, and it frustrates me so much. I just feel so different from who I know I am, or at least used to be.

I’m starting to wonder if the whole quality over quantity thing isn’t making more sense again, because I’m just about useless like this.