Waiting to talk with Dr. Phinney has been a challenge, but I am doing pretty good with it. I’ve found that keeping myself busy seems to help keep most of the negativity out of my head. I certainly have moments throughout the day where I start to think about it all, but I try to turn my thinking around as quickly as I can. I worked eleven hours on Friday and then, after getting my haircut, I met Tina at Longhorn Steakhouse for dinner. Afterward we went home and watched some TV and went to bed. I slept pretty well last night, with no bad dreams.
I got up at 7:00 this morning and was at work before 8:00. After a long day of database work and some programming, I am getting ready to head home to meet Tina. After a quick change of clothes we are heading over to our daughter Susan’s house for a cookout. After that, if I am not too tired, Tina and I are planning to go to Cinamark Theaters at Franklin Park Mall to watch a movie. We both want to see The Dark Tower, Spider-man: Homecoming, and Atomic Blonde, so we have plenty of choices. We’ll probably pick the one that starts closest to the time we leave Susan’s house, because I am very tired.
Keeping busy has helped and the time is shortening that I have to wait to talk to Dr. Phinney. Prayer has also helped me a lot, as well as thinking of my beautiful wife, wonderful children, awesome grandchildren, and the rest of my family and friends who are behind me and counting on me to fight. Knowing that I am not alone, and have so many reasons to keep pushing forward in this battle, has made it easier to squash the bad thoughts when they creep in. I have no idea what Dr. Phinney is going to say or what we’re going to try next, but I am not going to give up. I am going to fight with everything that I have.