Well here I am at work on another Saturday, the fifth week in a row. Last night I was really bummed out about working today after working a full week, comprising of well over 40 hours, because I wanted to relax and catch up on some rest. Yup, I was really bummed, until I thought about it this morning, after a good night’s sleep and with a clear head.
Why should I be saddened about working on another Saturday? I mean, my boss was kind and understanding enough to let me work every other Saturday, to have every other Tuesday for chemo treatments. Not to mention that I am feeling well enough, even with the poison that is pumped into my body every other week, to actually work and maintain my work for my company and my financial responsibilities for my family.
So, instead of feeling bummed out about working another Saturday, I am grateful that I am able to. I am grateful that I am feeling well enough to work, and that I am seeing good results from my chemo treatments. I am grateful that I have an incredible amount of support from my family, friends and co-workers. I am grateful to God for helping me through this and giving me the strength to do what I have to do.
So it’s been a while since I posted anything, and I’m not really sure why. It’s not like I didn’t have anything to say, I guess I’ve just been busy with other stuff. I’ve been trying to get a lot done at work, including wrapping up a couple of large projects, hiring and training a new web developer, and taking care of the usual break-fix stuff in the world of IT. As a matter of fact, I am at work now on a glorious and wonderful Saturday morning, when I would prefer to be at home sleeping.
In the evenings after work Tina and I have been spending a lot of time together, going out to dinner, binge watching a couple of Netflix shows and getting some shopping done. It’s a lot more than I usually do after work, but I love to spend time with her and it’s been helping me keep my mind off the whole cancer thing, even if just a little.
Speaking of cancer, I finished round six of my chemo this week, and the symptoms are steady and mostly unchanged. The cold sensitivity is probably the worst, because touching or eating/drinking anything even remotely cold causes a problem for me. The best way that I can explain it is when eating/drinking cold things, it is what I imagine it would be like to drink liquid Icy Hot. First the cold is almost unbearable and then it burns. When touching anything cold, my hands tingle like they are going to sleep, then they burn.
Anyway, enough of my whining. I’ll try to do better with the updates, because it really helps me to get my thoughts out and clear my mind.