So now that my second round of chemo is done, I have to say that the side effects have been exponentially worse than the first round. I am really trying to remain positive and keep my nose to the grind, but to be honest, so far this week has been a lot harder to do that.
The nausea has been worse, though I have been able to control it with the medication. The neuropathy has been way worse, including severity of the burning/tingling and the spreading of it. Last round I had it a little in my fingers and toes but this week it has been from about mid-palm down on both hands, pretty steadily.
Then there’s the cold sensitivity, which has been quite a bit worse. I found out that, even with socks on, my feet get cold on the bare floors in our house. Touching simple things like an interior door knob can set it off. And don’t even get me started about the cold weather and the wind right now, because it makes going outside a huge ordeal.
And, after all that, I can’t forget the fatigue. I have been feeling so tired and drained that I am fighting to make it through a full day of work without a nap. Today I worked for four hours and then came home and slept for three hours, and already I am ready to go to bed. I don’t really ache and my body doesn’t hurt, I am just so tired that I can’t stand it. The nausea also makes this worse because the medication that they gave me also makes me very tired.
I am going to keep pushing forward and I keep asking God to help me with all of this, but I have to be honest and admit that I am worried about what the next round will bring. If these side effects keep getting progressively worse each time, I am not sure how I am going to be able to work and live life.